Every once in a while... actually, with great regularity... something happens in my life that I'd really love to share, but which is unbloggable. It is not bloggable because to share even the bare outlines of the situation would be to risk coming out much more swiftly than I am prepared to do.
This said, I want to share that recently:
* Two people I love clashed professionally. It was not pretty. I still await, with a slightly sick feeling in the pit of my stomach, the fallout.
* I placed myself in a situation where I was very, very publicly among the LGBTQ community. Television cameras were involved. Ditto fallout, sort of. There is still a way in which I feel, Come what may, I am ready for it.
Everything I read about this week with regards to today's lessons on the Trinity pointed to relationship as the core meaning. God is not at a remove. God, in essence, is relationship, both internally and in regards to human beings. And God creates us to be in relationship as well. As my head clears (day 28 of no sugar, 13 of no flour), I recognize that the business of being in relationship has always come with a measure of fear. I guess I could blame it on the parenting I received as a child... isn't that what we do? But my path is my path. And I believe, in many ways, that God helps us make our way into situations that speak to whatever our core condition might be. For me, it is fear in and around relationships. And here I am.
Blessings this Trinity Sunday.