Saturday, May 31, 2008

Watching Myself

This morning I spoke with a commenter on this blog who is also a friend in the real world.

"Wow," she said, "It really sounds like you have a timeline to be out in a year."

I know I wrote that in my last post. In a way, I didn't write it... it wrote me, I guess. At this time a year ago, such a scenario was unimaginable to me. But now, staying in the closet indefinitely is unimaginable.

It's fascinating watching myself change in this way.

We'll see what the year brings.


FranIAm said...

Well whatever the year brings, may always be on the wings of grace.

And with you- I can't imagine it will be otherwise.

Choralgirl said...

:-) There's something very dewy and fresh about this.

Bless you, friend.

Em said...

Hi Cecilia,
I heard about you from Pastor Paul at All God’s Children in Mpls.
I sincerely hope you can find your way permanently out of the closet. I just recently got out of mine and I continually marvel at how nice it is to be removed from its confines.
Until just recently, I lived in a rural SE MN community and was mostly in the closet myself. I didn’t deny that I’m a lesbian if directly asked but also wasn’t open about it. All I can say is that I’m glad now to be out and be able to enjoy my new found freedom. When I met my partner, for us to be together required some major changes because we didn’t want to have a long distance relationship. So I left my small town and moved to the Twin Cities. One of the things we both agreed on was that we did not want to hide anymore so we planned a wedding ceremony at All God’s Children and invited all our friends and family whether they knew we were lesbians or not. [Paul performed our ceremony.] It was the best thing we could have done – we have had so much love and support showered on us from so many unexpected places that I truly wonder why I hid for so long. [Our biggest difficulties have been from our parents because they just can’t seem to accept that what we have is as legitimate as what they have in their marriages.] Anyway, I didn’t have the added complexity of being a pastor to influence the situation, but I’m hoping you can eventually leave the closet behind. I even believe we could have lived in that small town if not for the fact that my partner has 3 kids and custody is shared with their father. My intention is not to give you unwanted advice, but just wanted to share a bit of our story so you know that there can be unexpectedly happy endings to coming out. Good luck!

parodie said...

Blessings & prayers for you my friend.

Be bold, but be gentle with your soul. :)

RevDrKate said...

Prayers always....

Choralgirl said...

...and now we know. :-)