Saturday, May 31, 2008

Watching Myself

This morning I spoke with a commenter on this blog who is also a friend in the real world.

"Wow," she said, "It really sounds like you have a timeline to be out in a year."

I know I wrote that in my last post. In a way, I didn't write it... it wrote me, I guess. At this time a year ago, such a scenario was unimaginable to me. But now, staying in the closet indefinitely is unimaginable.

It's fascinating watching myself change in this way.

We'll see what the year brings.

6 comments:

FranIAm said...

Well whatever the year brings, may always be on the wings of grace.

And with you- I can't imagine it will be otherwise.

Choralgirl said...

:-) There's something very dewy and fresh about this.

Bless you, friend.

Em said...

Hi Cecilia,
I heard about you from Pastor Paul at All God’s Children in Mpls.
I sincerely hope you can find your way permanently out of the closet. I just recently got out of mine and I continually marvel at how nice it is to be removed from its confines.
Until just recently, I lived in a rural SE MN community and was mostly in the closet myself. I didn’t deny that I’m a lesbian if directly asked but also wasn’t open about it. All I can say is that I’m glad now to be out and be able to enjoy my new found freedom. When I met my partner, for us to be together required some major changes because we didn’t want to have a long distance relationship. So I left my small town and moved to the Twin Cities. One of the things we both agreed on was that we did not want to hide anymore so we planned a wedding ceremony at All God’s Children and invited all our friends and family whether they knew we were lesbians or not. [Paul performed our ceremony.] It was the best thing we could have done – we have had so much love and support showered on us from so many unexpected places that I truly wonder why I hid for so long. [Our biggest difficulties have been from our parents because they just can’t seem to accept that what we have is as legitimate as what they have in their marriages.] Anyway, I didn’t have the added complexity of being a pastor to influence the situation, but I’m hoping you can eventually leave the closet behind. I even believe we could have lived in that small town if not for the fact that my partner has 3 kids and custody is shared with their father. My intention is not to give you unwanted advice, but just wanted to share a bit of our story so you know that there can be unexpectedly happy endings to coming out. Good luck!

parodie said...

Blessings & prayers for you my friend.

Be bold, but be gentle with your soul. :)

RevDrKate said...

Prayers always....

Choralgirl said...

...and now we know. :-)